“I wonder if the path is as lonely as I’ve been imagining, after all”Read the latest installment
I wonder if the path is as lonely as I’ve been imagining, after all
Wait, since when do I joke about these things? What’s happening to me?
And Mrs. Goldfein thinks I can be a mentor. A role model. Yeah, right
She’s got a couple hours free? More like she feels sorry for me
Infusions? Being hooked up to an IV every month to get medication?
Stupid medication, stupid side effects, stupid joint pain, stupid fatigue. No camp, no summer job, waste of a…
Maybe things aren’t just going to go back to how they were. Maybe they never can
The doctor’s words echo through my brain. Chronic. Illness. Lupus. Won’t ever go away
Words aren’t going to help me stand up again. Words aren’t going to let me move my aching…
“I really think I’m getting better. I think I’m fine. Maybe it was all just a virus or…
I’m not regular Libby anymore, just some strange kid who flits in and out of school with the…
I must be crazy. I must be insane. The doctor said so. The doctor said so
She’s talking in her “reasonable” voice, the kind she uses on kids she works with. Ugh
The phone rings again. Who on earth calls on Purim? In the middle of the seudah?
My poor arm. I want to cry when the nurse appears to do more bloodwork
It’s not an option to refuse. That’s the only reason I nod stiffly and follow her down the…
I can’t even face my best friend anymore, because no one understands
“If the colonoscopy came back clear, then what’s wrong with me?”
“I’m not fainting,” I say. “I... it passed. I don’t know what happened”
"It could be it’s a cycle— she can’t work, so she gets anxious, so the pain gets worse?”…
She rolls her eyes. “Don’t listen to me, then. But don’t come crying when things aren’t working out”
“Ma’s busy. She has work soon, she can’t come running just because you have a headache. Take a…
