T here wasn’t a sound in the room as Yocheved spoke. “No one besides me my husband and Karen knew about my double life. I believed my unhappiness was due to the self-restraint I was still exercising and that I needed to become ever more uninhibited — to find bigger better thrills.
“It was actually Karen who made me realize I was out of control. She wanted me to go to Europe with her and I balked. We fought for the first time and she pulled away. I completely flipped out. I became desperate to speak to her would do anything to get her back. I worked out this whole elaborate plan to impress her but she refused my calls.
“I was going crazy. So I embarked on a course of abandon and self-destruction. I was ready to leave my husband leave any semblance of Yiddishkeit. I would do anything to make the pain go away. I had one foot out the door but before I actually left my world completely Karen called.
“I jumped at the chance to see her. We met and she told me she’d begun to put her life back together. She told me she’s an addict and that she’s dealing with it and that I should come with her to groups.
