How do I let go of the longing for a different reality?
One day I woke up sick and I needed to spend the whole morning in my room. I knew I was going to have to take it easy the rest of the day, and I was feeling guilty that my husband had to pick up the slack. Midday, I was about to tell him, “I’m sorry I’ve been in bed for so long,” when I stopped myself.
“Thank you so much for being there for me and the kids,” I said.
That statement changed my inner reality. I understood that being sick wasn’t something to feel guilty about, and I was secure in the fact that I needed this time to rest. I realized that I wasn’t “sorry” — I was grateful. So instead of making it all about me and putting my husband in the position to have to reply, “Nah, don’t worry about it,” he could now comfortably say, “You’re welcome,” knowing that his help was appreciated.
When Yosef was sent down to Mitzrayim, Yaakov Avinu was led to believe he was dead. Yaakov could not be comforted over the loss (Bereishis 37:35) and Rashi explains it was because Yosef was still alive.
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