I’m going through something, and it’s big
We’ve been through it all together: high school, seminary, dating, adjusting to marriage. Before we were married, we spent fun vacations together, had inspiring Shabbosos together, laughed together, and cried together.
In adulthood, whenever one of us went through something, we knew we had each other to fall back on. Whether it was something we’d share with the whole group or just individuals in it, whether it was something we could share at the time or only after the fact — we knew we could find strength and support from one another.
Life happens, as we know. We’ve all had our individual journeys to get there, but baruch Hashem we’re all married and blessed with children. We don’t live in the same country or have the same schedules and we don’t even talk that often, maybe every couple of months. But even so, when one of us faced a challenge — be it infertility or a difficult pregnancy or illness in the family — we reached out to each other for tefillos, for strength and support.
Now I’m going through something, and it’s big. I’m trying to tackle a deep trauma from my childhood — to face it head on, to finally be free of it. It’s confronting every one of my deepest fears. It’s one of the bravest and hardest things I’ve ever done. It’s empowering and exhausting and some days it sucks the life out of me, making daily life feel impossible. And it’s also deeply lonely.
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