I don’t know how it happened. I guess if I really want to analyze my feelings I would say that I felt a bit lonely. Most girls in my class had paired off into best friends and while I had friends I didn’t have that one special friend who would save me a seat on the bus or wait for me after class or grab an extra anything for me. In retrospect I now also recognize that I suffered from low self-esteem and a sense of insecurity… again I suppose I could analyze it and blame my family my past but there’s no point really.