I could never explain myself so I was always convinced that someone was mad at me
Those two words bring up a lot of distress for me. Mostly because I can’t. Memory is selective, and the memories I draw on most are of being the peacemaker. Had you seen me as a tween, you would have deduced that I was happy-go-lucky. The “Baruch Hashemer,” if you will.
My mantras included: “Great! Great!” It was always great. And: “AMAAAZING!” It was always amazing. And the all-time favorite: “No Worries.” Except it wasn’t great, nor amazing, and there were many, many worries.
As a kid, negative feelings were a no-no. “Ach, why are you upset? Snap out of it.” And, “Stop being mad, make shalom.”
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