We can’t live someone else’s life; we must live the one that we were designed for
I went through a lot of bullying when I was a child, and was rejected by my classmates and invisible to the adults. Today I find myself drawn to many forms of self-expression. I enjoy and have done almost anything creative or expressive that exists, some as jobs, some as hobbies.
I’m experiencing much self-doubt because a rebbetzin warned me that having so many outside interests can get in the way of family life, and since family is so important to me, I’m concerned my interests will get in the way.
I once asked myself: Why do I need all these hobbies? I felt the answer in my heart: I want to be seen. Each interest allows me to express a different piece of myself and it’s hard to let go, but because of my self-doubt I’ve dropped it all and am trying to figure out how to proceed.
I want to make an authentic choice, but I’m having trouble untangling my voice from those of others. When is having many hobbies and a few side jobs a problem? I have a small business, do kiruv, teach classes, paint, play an instrument, and am a teen mentor.
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