I Never Knew

I never imagined that motherhood would take every single part of me, every last bit of myself that I didn’t even know I possessed.

I never imagined I would need to dig deeper and deeper still to find reservoirs of patience.

I never imagined I would need to wake up every 30 minutes of the five hours I spent in bed and call that my “night’s sleep.”

I never imagined the impossibly challenging struggle of very difficult pregnancies. It was odd to have words like “traumatic,” “horrendous,” and “dreadful” become deeply connected to blessings I was so grateful for… but then again, I never imagined I’d have HG, had never even known it existed.